Tomorrow night the women from church are meeting to go see a display at the Mesa Temple Visitor's Center. I want to see the display. I don't want to go with those women. Not because they are rude. Because I don't have any friends yet, and I kind of don't want to try to make any friends with these women whom I will probably see very, very, very rarely once we move. I already feel a lot of obligation to the people in this congregation, and know it will be hard enough to say good-bye in a few short weeks/months when we end up closing on a house.
The only thing that stops me from feeling too badly about my attitude is the fact that very, very few people have tried to reach out to me. Jon and I have talked about this before and we've decided that I am probably one of those people that has a bubble around them stamped with the word: UNAPPROACHABLE. We think this because there have been times when it seems I have intimidated others, completely unbeknownst to me.
Why is it that we get so intimidated by the talents, looks, successes of others? It's almost as if we forget that we possess characteristics that make us unique and special as well.
Jon wants to play Rock Band this weekend with a buddy from work, and he has been telling me about this guy and his wife. And I am already intimidated, and resolved to act the way I normally do when someone is overly confident and outspoken, the way Jon described this coworker. Why is that? Why does it scare me to think about how this man may or may not conduct himself?
All I know is that I don't like that I've been written off and judged based on what people have seen of my outward self. No one here knows the "real" me because what they see is too scary for them to approach. And, it's sad. So when I meet this friend of Jon's, I can only hope that I don't retreat into my turtle shell of intimidation, and show him that I may not be overly confident and loud, but there are some great things about me that he and his wife can know if only they give me a chance.
The only thing that stops me from feeling too badly about my attitude is the fact that very, very few people have tried to reach out to me. Jon and I have talked about this before and we've decided that I am probably one of those people that has a bubble around them stamped with the word: UNAPPROACHABLE. We think this because there have been times when it seems I have intimidated others, completely unbeknownst to me.
Why is it that we get so intimidated by the talents, looks, successes of others? It's almost as if we forget that we possess characteristics that make us unique and special as well.
Jon wants to play Rock Band this weekend with a buddy from work, and he has been telling me about this guy and his wife. And I am already intimidated, and resolved to act the way I normally do when someone is overly confident and outspoken, the way Jon described this coworker. Why is that? Why does it scare me to think about how this man may or may not conduct himself?
All I know is that I don't like that I've been written off and judged based on what people have seen of my outward self. No one here knows the "real" me because what they see is too scary for them to approach. And, it's sad. So when I meet this friend of Jon's, I can only hope that I don't retreat into my turtle shell of intimidation, and show him that I may not be overly confident and loud, but there are some great things about me that he and his wife can know if only they give me a chance.
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We've lived in our house for about 4 years now and still feel mostly alone.
I think things will be fine with the buddy from work and when you do settle down somewhere you'll find friends easy!