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And now I search for motivation


Recently I have noticed that most of the blogs I read almost seem unreal.  Like the writers/photographers are living an idealistic life filled with joy and perfectness.  It seems like their world is peaceful and everywhere in their houses is clean and their photos look like they were taken straight out of a Better Homes and Gardens magazine.  They all know how to decorate, sew, teach, craft things from wood, take fantastic photos, and then they all write about it in a way that makes me want to be them.  It makes me wonder what a "real" day is in their lives.  I also realize that there are times when I don't want everyone to see what is not perfect in my life as well.  But, not today.  Today, I am keeping it totally real. 

I do not like to exercise.  At least, I don't when I am not in the "groove."  There are so many of my friends who are into running, or exercising, or just seeing how fit they can be (at least, that's how it appears to me).  I read many, many Facebook statuses and many, many blog posts about them running, exercising, and finding ways to get that last little bit of exercise in an impossible situation or place.

That is not me.  At least, not right now.

A few years ago ... Yes, that was me.  I was waking up at 5:30 every morning to exercise (utilizing my Firm videos), and I felt great!  There was a sense of accomplishment about working hard in the morning (or even in the afternoon or evening), especially doing something that I hated.

That's not true.  I didn't really "hate it."  I hated getting up, getting set up, getting started, getting through it.  It was hard.

So many people I know love to exercise.  They tell me that their day is not complete unless they have first worked out.  And, I totally get that.  Having been a person that exercised frequently, I felt the energy and the positive psychological outlook that that accompanies physical activity.

When I was exercising daily several years ago, I met my sister, mom, cousins, and aunt in Las Vegas for a girls' weekend.  I was not willing to stop exercising, because I knew that if I stopped for even one weekday, it would be super hard to do it get back into the habit of exercising daily when I'd get back home.  So, I took my dvds with me and used water bottles for my weights.  My sister thought I was crazy.  I agree.  But, months later, for one reason or another, I didn't exercise.  And, I haven't been in the habit of exercising daily since that day.  It has been so hard to get the motivation to get up and do it.  Something always comes up to influence me not to get my stuff out and do it.  It's way more fun to play a sport.  And, I'm so excited to be playing volleyball weekly now that church volleyball has started.  It's not enough though.  I know I need to be exercising, even if it is just to be a good example for my children.

That's not the real reason why I want to start exercising again, though.  I want to be able to wear jeans again.  (Currently, I can't find jeans that fit because when I buy jeans that fit my waist, the legs are way too tight; and when I find jeans that fit my thighs, the waist is humongous.)

Jon and I are planning a trip to San Diego this spring for our anniversary.  And, I keep telling myself that I will wake up and exercise so I can feel better about how I look in my swimsuit.  Every morning I wake up and then roll back over and go back to sleep.  Maybe one day I will own up to my expectations and then I won't feel so terrible.

So, you tell me ... what pushes you to exercise?  What do you like to do to stay fit?

Comments

Anna said…
I am right there with you...I haven't been able to find the motivation to exercise. You would think the way I look would be motiviaiton enough, but nope. Let me know what you come up with.
Becky said…
I don't believe in exercise. Actually I suffer from the same thing. Let me know if you find something that works!
Aubrey A said…
Hmmm. . .I'm still searching for mine. For a while there I loved doing Pilates, but it eventually got boring for me. We just bought a stationary bike hoping it would inspire Aaron (and by extension me) to exercise. I was also looking into a Wii game called "Just Dance" (I heard from a nutritionalist in our ward that it was an amazing workout. . .burning tons of calories but not feeling like you were "working out") to motivate not only me, but help our boys to do more than just play video games. :)
The other thing I've done is found jeans that work for me. (I often have the same problem; thighs right=too big waist; waist right=too tight thighs.) I found some at Shopko that are perfect, and I've also found them at Old Navy. They tend to make me feel a little bit better about the not working out thingy. :)
Good luck!
Lynette said…
Well, don't feel too bad. :) I'm not a runner and never will be. What I really, really like to do is bike ride. I used to do it all of the time in jr.high and high school (along with dance lessons, which certainly kept me fit). But since we've moved to an area that is hilly and I don't have a place to store a bike, I therefore haven't ridden a bike in 8 years!! So, I've had to find motivation in other ways. And you know what? I go through phases where I'll exercise (aerobics DVDs) nearly every day for several weeks and then I'll go for loooong periods where I don't exercise at all. It frustrates me, too, because I want to be fit and feel good (in a swimsuit!) and eat better...I don't get why I go through phases like this, either, because I do enjoy exercising. Maybe it's because I don't want to get up before the kids right now. I definitely don't like exercising at night (I'm too tired and want to relax) and if I do it during the day, I have to make sure I've eaten something otherwise I can't make it! :)

.....None of that was helpful. :) I just feel for you...That's all!
Tanners said…
your an all or nothing kind of gal. although this is and idealist approach --it's not life. life, is crazy. life happens. so start small, real small. walk, jog 25 times up and down your stairs, buy a new work out dvd. right now i'm doing jillian michaels 30 day shred, it's 3 levels of workouts each 25 minutes with the warm up and cool down, and right now that't all i have time for 20 minutes, because most days i don't even get to the cool down-i'm usually picking up a crying child at that point. what you have to realize marisa is that at different times in your life you'll be able to do more. sooo--if you need to set a work out time do that. scott has recently lost 35 pounds and the main three things he has changed are: eat at the table, eat more vegetables, and work out the same time every day (for him this is after early morning seminary.) you can do it!!! you can! find something you like. -dancing to music, jumping on the trampoline with your kids. i believe in you--! you can do hard things.

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